~~ Levels of Lonesomeness ~~

Have you ever thought about on how many levels you can feel alone?

There are so many dimensions to that one word.

To begin with, you can be alone because you choose to.
And that can be a relief, a comforting thing were you just enjoy time by yourself.
But if it’s escaping from things you don’t want to face – your insecurities, an argue, pain; it goes from peaceful to something else.

Being alone against your will is heartbreaking.

Are you alone by frustration?
That you found things so boring it was no use going?
Was it for the best, but now you regret saying no?
Isn’t there enough friends?
Are they there beside you, but still makes you feel empty?

Feeling alone in a crowd is one of the worst feelings I know about.
You find yourself laughing, but still you know that it’s all fake?
Is it possible that you’re alone in your relationship - sitting on the couch with your boyfriend/girlfriend...aching inside.

Or what about lost love?
Most of us know that pain.
We know that no matter how many loving people you have around you, your still the loneliest person on earth.
At that point the suffering is far more than physical….
It is emotionally torturous….

But what about being alone in a decision?
Alone at work, alone in your heart and alone in seeing things clearly.

What about the loneliness of self contempt and hatred?
When you punish yourself?.
And the loneliness that comes when someone passes away (I’m not digging in that particular feeling).

But are you really alone?

Is it possible to just stop?
Is it a chemical reaction to things happening around you?
A reaction forcing us towards pain?

Can we hide from feeling alone?
Does so many of us just accept that we are lonely, avoiding our self’s as we push it away to the comfort of shallowness?
Are we really seeing our self’s in the mirror?
Do we want to see our self’s in the mirror?
See what we really are, and how we are hurting our self’s?
Can we make new friends, face new situations that makes us forget?

.. Or will it chase us down in the end.
I’m not sure…absolutely blank…
I wish I had someone to answer me all these queries….
What do you think?