~~Unperceived anonymity ~~

I can't shake this feeling,
the dread won't go away.
A voice inside my head keeps shrieking,
“Nothing will be okay”.

Why is it so hard,
to find someone to care?
Who will stand by my side,
Who will always be there?

I wanted to be his one and only,
but now I'm all alone.
I stare blankly at the wall,
waiting by the phone.

My faith disappears,
as my prayers remain unanswered.
His face haunts my vision,
my screams remain unheard.

Starting to hate the world,
as I expect everyone to leave.
Why can't they understand,
I'm standing right there yet I am invisible to all?

I try to reach out,
but I fall to my knees.
Whispering softly,
why won't you seize me?

I close my blinded eyes,
forsaken to this doom.
Ripping apart my chest,
I can't breathe; I choke as if there's no room.

It's a sense of unperceived anonymity...

I scream but no one hears.
I'm isolated yet this silence screams back at me.
I try to escape but I can't run from my own self.
I'm trapped inside my violent turbulence.