Painted smile

I hide behind my painted smile

And I watch as all of you adore me

Being stared at and loved

I am all that you want to be.

I smirk and laugh at you all

Because you will never be as good enough

You will try all your life

But the competition is tough.

On the outside I may seem perfect

On the inside I am no better than you

But I hide behind my painted smile

So you will never know what is true.

My tears roll down from my cheek

And onto my dress

You never would have thought

I’d be such a mess.

I am no different than you

We are all the same

But while I put on my painted smile

You'll always think I am at blame.

I am the fault of your low self esteem

Always telling you what your faults are

When really I am drowning myself in lies

Smothering me like tar.

When I hide behind my painted smile

I am okay, or so I pretend

You would have never believed

This would be how it'd end.

My Imperfection is shown

My painted smile has left

And my lies are still impending

Even on my death.

Sitting here nearly lifeless

All I can do is cry and scream

As my veins are cut open

Having nightmares that was once a dream.

Flowing from my hands

The blood of crimson red

My painted smile has left me

Lying lifeless cold and dead...