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I see a girl running, she’s just running ,running so fast as if she was running for her life ,but the truth is she’s running away from her life. So far into the horizon till she is not able to see the world she lives in, till the time it’s just her and her alone. And no one else.
And that girl is me.
Really, it’s been enough. It’s been ages since I had a good night’s sleep…can’t remember when was the last time I slept without a troublesome head ,without my mind buzzing with troublesome thoughts devoid of any peace.
On the face of it nothing is really wrong. I go to office every day, do my job, come back, cook a meal (if feel like), read something and doze off. But inside me I just want to quit everything and run away, far far away from it all to a place where I am all alone. Just me and myself.
For once, I don’t want to think about others, I just want to think of myself. I just want to care about myself. I just want to LIVE FOR MYSELF.
I don’t want to do this job to earn money for me and my family’s security.
I don’t want to save the money that I earn for my marriage; I want to spend it all away, on luxury.
I don’t want to take a new job in the new city, I just want to quit and sit at home.
I don’t want to think that if I don’t get a pedicure done I will save Rs. 300.
I don’t want to take any responsibilities; I want to be that little girl once again.
I don’t want to change myself for anyone.
I don't want to give others the strength, which I myself don't have.
No one is asking me to do the above things, only the situation.
The burden is too heavy for me, God. Looks so difficult to take more of it. And yet can’t do anything about it.
For all those girls who are living their lives for themselves, you are lucky, lucky that God has given you that kind of life. Coz when you start living for others, its hard to find yourself back again.
Sach mein zindagi ne bahut kuch sikha diya,
Jaane kab kaise aur kyun itna bada bana diya...
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