~~ Trapped in my own Reverie ~~

Falling upward
Into a world
Of unknown
Feel like a coward

Like a worm, I curled
In darkness I drown
Held within a spiders web
A curse is brought upon you

Stuck in a maze bed
Attacked by a pirate cruel.
Clowns are surrounding
Laughing
Mocking me
Alone and afraid
Can’t you see?
Pins and needles
I’m already dead…..

As I enter the room
I stop and I stare
There is noise all around me
Yet no one is there

I am surrounded by darkness
Nowhere to turn
To find a way out
I desperately yearn

I feel all around but there is nothing but black
So tangible
So thick
Of light there is a lack

I feel like a mouse
Trapped in a cage
On the brink of tears
Yet not in rage
And just as I am about to give up hope and just cry

I’ll never smell freshly cut grass
Or feel the warm breeze on my face
I’ll never squint from the glare of the sun,
Or feel the sand beneath my feet

I’ll no longer laugh with friends on outings,
Or dance to the tunes in our clubs,
To run in the wind or dance in the rain,
And shelter in doorways from the chill

I’ll no longer watch my children run free
Or couples in love holding hands
I’ll no longer dress for occasions,
And plan for a fun time out

I feel something beneath my hand
I keep going feeling for I cannot spy
And then at last an empty space
Perhaps finally my freedom I will chase…

Coz, I am here in a box of terror,
Too terrified to look out,
Yet watching life pass me by….
As I exist but no longer live.

Why is it terrifying to live?
Why do I cry and scream from the torments of my mind?
To feel trapped by everything,
It makes you feel blind

I have fought against my terror,
I have watched my mind awake
But without a moment’s notice I’m a broken doll
Drown in a lake

The world keeps on spinning,
The ants don’t see my pain
I don’t have any fight left in me,
Why can’t I be sane?

I used to have a life
I used to be free,
But now I tremble in terror
From my self-imposed prison called “me”…!