~~ FEAR ~~

Fear of inaccessible love,
Fear of never ending pain,
Fear of the unforgiving cane,
Fear of visible lies,
Fear of unfathomable sighs,
Fear of those distraught eyes,
Fear for the unknown,
Fear for the known,
Fear of everything combined.

Fear is what makes me blind,
Fear is what makes me think,
And act in blind accordance,
Hindering the world around me,
Hence, My Fear of myself…

Fear is when I run away from myself,
Fear is when I’m scared to love someone,
And let someone love me back,
Fear is when the sky turns grey,
Fear is when I lose my loved ones,
Fear is a feeling of a mysterious danger,
Fear is when I’m not courageous,
Fear is the feeling of vengeance and anger.

Fear is when I can’t behave sane,
Fear is when I’m shy,
Fear is like not having devotion,
Fear is when I’m afraid of saying bye,
Fear is like a dark deep valley,
Fear is like finale of your career,
Fear is like being lonely among crowd,
Fear is like not being able to reappear,
Fear is like feeling unnoticed and ghostly.

Fear is like an ashtray, abandoned and trashed,
Fear is like a dark dungeon.
Fear of infuriating confusion,
Fear won’t let me escape
Fear mocks me, watching
Fear taunts me, waiting
Fear of losing whom I belong,
Fear I cannot see, and what all I see.

Fear dealt upon by you unleashing,
Fear of darkness and life, more than death,
Fear of an unresponsive confidante,
Fear of being endlessly stalked,
Fear of time, and age,
Fear of all the crimes I have not committed,
Fear of the undesirable truth,
Fear for the unappreciated goods I did.

Fear for the sake of life,
Fear of the neighbors next door,
Fear of the secretive man in the subway,
Fear of the revolutionary uproar,
Fear of not able to rejoice my life, just existing,
But to fear is to forsake it.

Fear is to have no hope in life,
Fear of the terror of trepidation;
We need no reason to fear,
For fear has no reason for itself.
I guess life is just like that,
To fear for no reason,
For to fear is not to reason,
But to reason is to fear.
So let me think,
What else do I fear?

I fear the struggle for unreachable fruit,
I fear the strife for being loved,
A fear of death unknown and unnoticed,
A fear of life trapped in your own cage.
I fear for every acquaintance,
I fear for me when I look into the mirror,
I fear of what will come to be.

There's plenty to fear, than fear itself.
I fear the unfathomable pain.
I fear my well of hope is running dry,
I fear so much, I'm forced to cry.
I fear anonymity.
I fear the blade that seems to chop my life.
I fear the lady I came to be.
I fear the gloom and fail to see.

I fear life has left me on the shelf,
Far behind, right at the square one.
I fear the help, for which I cry,
I fear success I failingly again and again retry…

I fear of floating thoughts all around,
Of awful cacophony of noises with no sound.
I don’t feel fine if anyone grabs what’s mine!
They dance in circle tonight over absurd songs,
I fear lurking smiles everywhere.
A while ago they had no mouth,
But now they start to mock and laugh.
They pierce my ears and thorn my heart.

I ask myself “why?”
A sweat rolls down my spine, and
I whisper to myself “coz….my dear, you fear.”