FRAGMENTS

Sometimes I play with your fingers when you're sleeping.
The fragrance of our yesterdays
still reminiscient on your tips.
How I want to wake you up and make love to you.
You know the kind when you actually feel your souls merging as one,
clinging to eternity,
emulating utopia.
But your deep breathing and pursed lips tell me,
this is not the time...
And I wonder...
When was the last time we shared a tender kiss,
when was the last hearty laugh,
when did you last wake me up in the mid of the night
to say you wanted me,
and where,
where is this drive for perfectioning our lives leading us.
Isnt it perfect already ?
As our feets touch,
you snuggle them closer to mine.
Maybe you still love me like you did.
Minutes tick away like they must,
and somewhere a clock strikes the chime,
The twilight is beckoned,
and a new day raises her sleepy head
on the other side of my window.
I'm stil lost in your thoughts,
thoughts of us - thoughts of me and you.
We started out with a puzzle
and went on juggling the parts
in a bid to fit the pieces together.
Tiny little fragments of life shared between us two.
The picture got its shape, the jigsaw filled itself too,
Amidst all this yet,
why does my life feel so empty,
when I have tried to fill it up with you...?

Paneer Tikka

She was lying on bed…alternating between life and death

She was frail with deep crevices on her face

And hollows in her cheeks, her eyes deep in their sockets.

When she opened her eyes, her thick cataract shone

The doctor had given her twenty-four hours to live.

“What do you want,” asked her daughter

“I want paneer tikkas and masala naan.”

“Have Ganga Jal,” said the daughter, “It is holy.”

“No,” was the hoarse and angry whisper.

She again lapsed into unconsciousness...

Was she going to the guillotine that they were asking for her last wish?

The paneer tikka arrived with the masala naan.

Her daughter first tried to put Ganga Jal in her mouth,

which she spat angrily.

She then put the paneer tikka in her mother's toothless mouth

And watched the serenity spread on her face.

What had God done to her in her ninety years

That she preferred panner tikkas to Him?

Velvet Lies

I've cried a thousand times before

Leaving a broken heart crashed on the floor

So tired to pick up each pieces

I just left it behind feeling numb, full of bruises.

Now I realized you didn't love me at all

It shows in your eyes like a reflection in a mirror

A horrifying sight, the end of my world

My destiny so sad, I have no one to hold.

I just woke up from this real nightmare

Glad that I am strong and I could stand still

You open up my mind how can be a darling so deceiving

You broke my heart, you took my all and everything.

Time helps mending the pain, put back the pieces in place

I wonder where you are now, I just wish you could live your life

Without those velvet lies as your masquerade of love

One day you will realize darling, if you find no one by your side.....

Forever Longing

This yearning in my heart
This confusion in my mind
The words left unspoken
Haunts me all the time

Everyday I watch pass by
With an emptiness in my life
And a hole in my heart
Where only you belong

There are nights I wake up crying
And wishing you were here
To hold me in your arms
And kiss away my tears

There is something that keeps me holding on -
What I'll never know
But one day things will go my way
And I'll have you in my arms...

A Bleeding Rose

A park bench he sat
There in the distance, he saw her sitting with tears in her eyes.
All alone
She sat in silence with butterflies all around.

Many roses grew in the garden behind
Red, yellow, white, and pink, all entwined with each other.
Fresh drops of dew sitting
Upon each petal, a glistening twinkle is seen.

In the sky above her
A sparkling rainbow, showers a glow to encompass her.
Capturing her soul
Beauty smiles upon her once again.

To her eyes
The sparkle returns, enchanting the rainbow further.
With a smile
He stands and walks over to her.

One yellow rose with red streaks
He hands to her, and with a soft gentle touch, he wipes her tears away.
He whispers to her
This rose bleeds enough; your soul needs not bleed anymore.

A kiss on her hand
He wipes her last tear dry.
As he walks away
He turns and thanks her for sharing her beauty.

I MISS YOU

I Miss You...
when something really good happens
because you are the one,
I want to share it with you...
I miss you....

When something troubles me
because you're the one,
who understands me well....
I miss you....

When I laugh and when I cry
because you are the one,
who makes the laughter grow and the tears disappear..
I miss you...

You don't know
how much I miss you
I live each day
as it comes
functioning in all my tasks
smiling when needed
even laughing at times
but inside I am so alone
each minute seems like an hour
each hour seems like a day
What makes this time bearable
are my thoughts of you
Though you are not here
wherever I go or whatever I do
I see your face as my reflection
and I miss you so
I miss our eyes
secretly giving each other confidence
I miss your touch
I miss everything we share
It is a very cold and lonely feeling
I wish that I could be
with you right now
where the warmth of our love
would melt the winter snows
Sometimes it is
a memory of something we shared
Other times it is
an incident in my life
that I imagine myself
telling you about
No matter what it is
in my mind, I write and call you every day
But since I can't be
Wherever you are right now
I will have to be content
just hoping for the day
when we'll be together again....

For you my F.R.I.E.N.D

Your hickied mischievous laughter,
Your chocolaty beaming visage.
Your miniature sleepy eyes.
Your flavour for jeans and tees.
How many afternoons we’ve depleted,
Laughing – gossiping – bitching in your or my room.
How many gifts and cards we’ve given each other.
In cheerfulness and in gloom.

Remember the last time we fought on your birthday last year ?
Remember how you cried in my embrace ?
The many uncounted evenings we spent at the beach.
The way your feet began tapping to everything hummable.
The lunch breaks at school,
The scout camps and dance rehearsals.
The times I picked you up for coffee,
The hang-outs with your friends.
All the hand-crafted friendship day cards n gifts,
All the spaces we ventured out together.

Long since I hugged you tight,
Ever since we had that fight,
I will not say I’ve spent sleepless nights,
Ruminating over wrongs and rights.
I was reading under a solitary candle,
When your thoughts came breezing by.
And yet again nostalgia came alive.
The way you sulked when I didn’t call,
The way you narrated your beloved’s every word.
The way held each other for an extended moment,
Everytime we met.
I learned how to move on,
I learned how to live,
I learned how take,
I learned how to give.

What I couldn’t learn was why.
Must we adore our ego more than we should.
Must we concur to nurse a lonesome heart.
Must nothing last forever.
Must friends plummet apart.