My last Wishes...

(The contemplation cropped in my mind when the slumber refused to blind me irrespective of the sedatives I took. It doesn't refer to anyone. Hence, it shouldn't be taken personally by any person under any circumstances. Just take it as a piece of Art.)

I wish I could open up,
I swear I would have told you then.
But it’s about someone for whom I don’t exist,
Someone, who left me without a Goodbye Kiss.

I wish I could forget,
I am sure I wouldn’t have been in such pain.
But everything keeps coming back,
And now I have figured out, I was the one who was insane.

I wish I could hold the tears in my eyes,
I know, then I wouldn’t have cried for nights.
But it just struck me, “You” always belonged to someone else,
And with me, “You” were just friend or just pretended to be one.

I wish I wouldn’t have taken those long walks.
I know it wouldn’t have happened, those long talks.
But sometimes you just remain your original self and go with the flow,
And you realise soon I’ve nothing left to offer anything unique from my store.

I wish I wouldn’t have been touched,
I think it was then when I lost myself.
But at times, you just get carried away,
And later, you have to make futile attempts to keep your memories at bay.

I wish I wouldn’t have thought you’ll ever be mine,
I remember you told me, I should stop trying.
But we kept crossing each other’s lives,
And that always made me go down on my knees and endeavour still.

I now wish, I wouldn’t have wished at all.
I am quite certain, I could have saved myself from this fall.
But I still wish, “You” get what “You" deserve,
And I know you’ll have this one preserved.

But now I’ll say Goodbye.
And I know you will seek and keep a track.
But remember Darling! This time I will never come back.

(P.S.: I reiterate not to be taken personally in any which way by anyone)